Tuesday, 30 December 2014

Holding on

Ever thought that maybe you are holding onto too many thoughts or memories that after a while they feel like they are suffocating you?

Imagine you are on a blow up boat out at sea. There is a hole in the boat and water keeps gushing in. The longer you leave the hole open the more water gets in and the quicker you sink. You start to panic but at this point no matter how hard to try to get the water out nothing works. And then everything is too much and the boat sinks. You're stranded out in the middle of the sea and no one is there to help you.
That is like how you or me could get sometimes. We, especially me, holds on to the past; guilt, regret, what if's. There is only so much of it you can take before you feel like you are drowning. The only thing that is different is when you feel like you have no one around you to support you there will always be there someone who is there to help you. Whether it's at your school, home, college, or a hobby, there will ALWAYS be someone who will take the time to listen to you. 

I'm one for holding onto the past I must admit. I guess its because I know they were happy times and I never want to lose them. I save literally everything from train tickets, hospital bands, sand from beaches, pictures, cards, festival bands, you name it i've probably saved it. I have this massive box in my room which is filled with scrapbooks, old cards, diary's, photos, tickets, and every once in a while ill sit and look through it and just remind myself of happy times. Its like that though, my life has had so many ups and downs that I want to save every good memory, because I don't know when they next one will come along. 

Maybe not just good memories either... the bad ones just have this thing about staying with me...maybe not on paper but always in my head. Bringing sleepless night with them, which leads to not eating and not wanting to go out. Over the past few months i've realised that holding onto the past was driving me insane! Trying to live up to them good times or constantly replaying the past in my head. I now know that you have to live in the present. You're never going to get that chance again. Make your life how YOU want it to be. If you don't like how the past turned out then change what you did. Try something different.

If you do take on any of this let me know? Tell me if it worked for you. Sometimes letting go can be the hardest thing to do but it will make you feel so much better in the long run.

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Kia x x x
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